Stronger and Stronger

I have never been afraid of new experiences in my life. Actually I have, but I knew that it was ordinary, every person fears the unknown. After so many broken "unknowns" I came to point where I seek for the unknown, and challenge the difficulty of every situation...I'm like a 'challenges-addict'. I don't care about the result: win or lose...that's not important...important is that I do as many things as I can...THAT'S WHY I GROW SO STRONG....SO STRONG....

Note for self

"...you've gone soft, you don't have the courage to go forward. What's wrong? Your whole life has been a gamble but you got through. Why stop now? I know your life depends on this next battle and you may lose or win. But if you lose, why not harm the enemy with all your weapons and hate? Why not make him bleed with all your anger and lust for revenge?  If you quit, you lose your chance of winning. Come on, soldier, get up! Get straight, keep your head up. The world doesn't need week people. I know you deserve better, but this is what you have, this is what you get, this is how you've always won : AGAINST ALL ODDS. They have always hated you for winning when you shouldn't, you've taken their place and put your name up on the board of winners. They hate you because you're a smart fighter, intelligent, ambitious, fearless warrior; because you know how to play the game and you play it the best. You didn't give up when they did, you didn't cry when they did, you've just moved forward. They all hate you for that, but they respect you for that. Look how they bow to you, how they wave at you... The war is not over, so why stop now? Soldier! get up and die on the battlefield! GIVE THEM NOTHING! BUT TAKE THEM EVERYTHING! ...........you know you always win, even when you lose..."

You are what you think you are...

    When I want to be in a good mood, I 'cut' anything else in my mind and I impose that good mood to my brain. I stop caring about anything else and I act like the man with the best mood in the world. And when I do that, I imagine myself being in front of all the negative things (especially fear) and I tell them: "Look! Despite your trying to bring me down, I do the opposite and become better in everything I do." When I want to be something I just be it, no doubt, no remorse. Sometimes I get bored with the good mood and I want to be very rational and dismal.